The Cost of Suffering

 I have not spoken with Warren since August 29, 30, 2026 about the cost of my suffering. He is aware that the financial investment I made into my marital property will be remunerated, by him, to Elfrieda. I suggested a fee, per month, for using the two projects that I completed at 225. Well, I actually did a lot more renovating than just the bathroom and gazebo but the dogs surely did wreck the floor after I refinished it. You can't imagine how a hot, sweaty dog, laying where it shouldn't, wreaks... havoc.

I really liked young Buhler. I'm trying to remember what he said that day, "You got your materials." Yes, that was it. I still don't know what he meant by that. Young Buhler knows how much gravel he dumped on the driveway when I was building up the back of the house. The earth had depleted at least 12 inches in depth. That is where I, also, laid the Barkman patio stones... Warren was at work when I used my truck to pick up all those stones from the Coop Building Center. They were so heavy, I had to pick them up in two loads. Warren helped a little with laying them. I did all the planning of where they needed to go. McMunn's had a few and I bought all they had of that style (the wood- look stones) and then filled in with a few grey ones.

I will be needing a lot of 'living income' to pay for this temporary dwelling I have been forced to sign for. It is a very unpleasant place to try to survive in and so expensive when there are no amenities in- suite, like washer and dryer. I did all of Warren's laundry for the entire four plus years I have lived in/ on my marital property. 

I really miss my microwave, (I bought that at Mega Deals.), etcetera.

I am sure Warren really appreciates all the cleaning I have done. He cleaned the tub, once, after we installed a new tub we bought at Home Hardware. Do you think I spoiled him too much?

I certainly hope he and his brother (the brother lives in a house trailer, out of town), have stopped dreaming of a new Lexus. I was really tired of that conversation. I can't imagine how they could afford that. 

When we were at our 'most wealthy,' we only ate dinner, in a restaurant, once or twice a year. I cooked 363 days per year, making our dinner and sometimes breakfast and baking and gardening. This year my tomato harvest was stolen so I wasn't able to make that delicious sauce we lived on the entire winter, three winters in a row.

 

This is the man I cooked for... and renovated for... and he is going to give me so many blessings from my work on that property, where we got married, 225.

I was forced to survive in my white flip flops even though I have 35 years worth of my clothing and footwear at 225. I wasn't allowed to wear my white flip flops for two days, August 30, and August 31, 2026. I was forced to be barefoot. I was very sick on the 31st from all the germs on the floors I was forced to walk on.

My navy lace wedding dress I purchased at Super Thrifty. My magenta lace dress, floor- length, I purchased at Winners. My dark plum lace dress I purchased at The Bay. I wore the dark plum dress and the magenta lace dresses to Handel's Messiah... different years.

Shovelling snow... wow, Elfrieda shovelled and shovelled and shovelled that driveway, for four years.